HERE WE GO AGAIN....

Let's start from the beginning... About 6 months ago my heart was being pulled to adopt again, I stared looking into the process again and at the waiting children pics and that only made my heart “WANT” more. Slowly I started making playful comments to Fred to see where his head was at. At first he was like “Not for a LONG time”… so I thought well if he says NO then why are you giving me the burden Lord? So I prayed and I began to seek God’s face and his path about a month later I joked with Fred again and he said “Ok start raising the money now and then in 3yrs we will do it”; NOT the answer I wanted to hear so I got back on my knees again and prayed for understanding of why God gave me this burden if my husband was going to stand in the way? GOD ANSWERS PRAYER… about a month or two later, and now the burden on my heart was even stronger and it was getting kinda hard to “wait on the Lord”. So this time I went to Fred, not in a playful way but a very matter of fact way, and I asked him again… this time Fred said “Ok… show me pictures!” I bout fell on the floor I was all ready for a big argument or my heart to be broken but no he wanted to look at pictures… WOW!!! (Backing up just a bit because the next part of my story needs for you to know this to see how AMAZING the God I serve is.) When going through our first adoption I fell in LOVE with a little guy that REALLY needed a home but I had my heart set on 2 “little ones” and if I remember correctly he was the only one available so I moved on and found Rorie and in another roundabout way I found Cole!!! (If you don’t know, Fred and I wanted to commit to a little blond guy but another family had committed to him that morning and I was so upset I had to find this family and follow them… not in a creepy way… to make sure he was going to a good home and I am happy to say that I believe he is right where he should be; and I can’t even imagine life without my Colester) Moving on… So this little guy was still available for adoption but had been moved to an institution. My heart wanted him sooooo bad but there was also a little girl with a VERY large grant that Fred really wanted. Now if you don’t know me I would be happy to LOVE any kid but for some reason my heart was pulled to the little boy so what did I do, I prayed and I went to Gods word and I really searched for what God wanted for Fred and I. Now up until this point I felt like I could actually hear God and I felt like ok things are clicking and this is where He wants us but which kid Lord show me… SILENCE!!!!! “Uhhh HELLO God what’s your answer… God ya there???” Three days… SILENCE… I was doing a study and the lesson was on contentment (A VERY HARD THING FOR ME) but I took it to heart and I looked at Rorie and Cole and thought “Ok, Lord… I am happy with Rorie and Cole and if this is all you want for us (assuming of course that His silence was my answer “NO”) I can be content with that!” And that I thought was that… UNTIL… It was a Wednesday morning and my Mom and I decided to take the kids and my two nephews to the $2 movies. We got to our seat and everyone sat down and my Mom went to get more popcorn, while I watched the kids. Now I never go on my phone in the theater because I HATE when people do that and at this point Facebook didn’t interest me, not to mention I was sitting with four kids that could have used my attention (which is the only embarrassing part to this story please overlook it), so this next part is a true and total testament to how GOD works (Listen UP!) I pulled out my phone and thought “Well there is time before the movie I’m gonna look at “waiting kids” pics… NO I am CONTENT!!!! I will check out Facebook”… and I did just that!!! My phone logged onto FB at 9:42am and at the very top of my news feed in fact the very first post was a very close friend of mine with a link to a blog for a little boy that NEEDED a family desperately she posted at 9:33am. I clicked on thinking “Oh maybe I can repost and get the word out to help find this boy a home…” The first pic loaded and there was a pic of a boy I recognized but when you look at “waiting children” you forget who you have seen and not seen. As I scrolled down the page and the boy in the pictures got older and older I realized that is the boy I had been praying for. My eyes started pouring out tears and I don’t mean a little sniffle I mean “Ugly Crying”… At this point my Mom came back with the popcorn and said “Oh No what happened” giving my nephews a dirty look like “What did you two do?” I caught my breath and stepped out into the lobby to message my friend back. I talked to Fred and he was completely on board!!! Here we go again… I so excited and this is a REALLY good story right??? Well that is ONLY the beginning! Remember how I told you about the little blond boy we wanted to commit to with Rorie and that another family had committed to him that morning… well after a few days of the excitement wore off about this new little guy and Fred and I had a chance to really think about all the details, we were ready to commit. But I got a phone call from this friend of mine letting me know her husband had finally said yes and that they would want nothing more than to bring this guy home. You might think I was angry or hurt or sad but I think our reaction is just another testimony to how God works everything out! I was happy… the other mother and I just thought what an amazing thing that here we are two families that want to love this boy that nobody wanted! Two families that want to do all we can for him that was the amazing thing we chose to see and I thought it only fitting that it would be her to adopt him since she already had my other son… JK!!! (Sorry, another story within a story)Before I got this call and while I was learning all I could about this little guy that I thought was going to join the Karol Klan I noticed another little guy that stole my heart and I just couldn’t get my mind off of him. I inquired about him and found that he was available for adoption and I thought, ”Oh no, Fred will NEVER go for it… this is what I will do I will get us approved for more than one kid and when we get there I will tell Fred we can’t leave without him”… Well I can’t keep secrets from God and an hour later I got that call from my friend saying how much she wanted the first boy! I believe that if I hadn’t fallen in Love with the first little guy I would have never found “Zachy” who we hope to name Felix (Blessed; Fortunate) Zachary (God Remembered)!... WOW is that the END you ask, “NO”!!! (I will give you the very short version of the rest of the story because I don’t want you to fall asleep! God knows your heart better than even you and he blessed me with the knowledge of ANOTHER little guy in the same facility that needs a Mommy and Daddy and YES we are going to be adopting him too, we hope to name him Silas (Companion) Frank (Free Man; it’s also Fred’s grandpa’s name)! Both boys are 5 and need us AS SOON AS POSSIBLE!!! I have been working VERY hard on getting all our paperwork put together and our homestudy is nearly complied. We will be doing some fundraisers that I will post later and Fred will have a “Chip In” put up on our blog in the next day or two, but more than anything else we need your love, support, encouragement and MOST OF ALL we COVET your PRAYERS!!!!!! Through this whole thing so far God has laid a VERY special song on my heart that is constantly in my head, I wake up every morning singing it… “My God is so GREAT, so STRONGE and so MIGHTY THERE’S NOTHING MY GOD CANNOT DO! My God is so GREAT, so STRONGE and so MIGHTY THERE’S NOTHING MY GOD CANNOT DO! The mountains are His, the rivers are His, the sky are His handy work too! My God is so GREAT, so STRONGE and so MIGHTY THERE’S NOTHING MY GOD CANNOT DO!” Oh it’s SOOOOO true!!! Photos to follow!!!