So yesterday was Cole's (Everett) birthday, and I did something pretty amazing... I baked cupcakes for Bible Study! He must be pretty special for me to do something like! No I like to bake I just cant seem to find time for it anymore, I can't find time for doing much other than PAPERWORK! Every time I think "OK this is it we are done and going to be submitted" time runs out for one of our forms and has to be redone. You see at the beginning of all of this I was like a powerful locomotive ripping through paperwork like crazy, doing all that I could to get things done so I could get my babies. Then came the road blocks and Lord knows I did all that I could to get passed them but some things are out of my hands no matter how much I called or showed up, unfortunately this adoption was not important to every company/person I had to deal with. Now that those forms are rolling in the forms I worked so hard and fast to get done are expiring, I'm just so fearful that we are going to end up having to redo everything and not get it done within the allotted time. Grrrr! I don't know how people can go through life changing events in their life (like adopting two kids form the Ukraine)with out God to lean on. My only refuge is that I can give all of this to Him, it's not always easy but I am learning to. I really want other Moms and Dads that are in the adoption process to know that while working so hard for the dream of adopting a sweat baby you may get caught up in the hussle and bussle of gathering paperwork and making sure that everything is correct and redo those forms that are not. You may get so frustrated that it is EXTREMELY hard to see the end goal (and for a new parent it's hard to know whether all the frustration is worth it), sometimes along the way it feels like "is this real, are there really kid(s) half way around the world waiting for me?" These feelings I believe are normal feelings but beware of them and don't let them slow you down or get in your way. I am so blessed that when I have these feelings (which lately has been a lot) I can give it to God! I read a devotional yesterday that pictured your walk with Christ as a tandem bike ride, it said if we let God direct our path and sit in the front we are bound to see amazing things because all we have to do is "PEDDLE" but when we are in the front we are so busy trying to get where we are going we miss out on all the scenery along the way. So Fred and I are trying our best to give this to God and just "PEDDLE"!
This devotional was preparing Fred and I for the day God had in store, Fred and I thought we only had three forms to get redone and we would finally be ready to submit but as I went through the checklist that was provided for me I realized that we had more mistakes to correct than I thought. Our marriage certificate was obtained in March which is to old for us to send so we had to go back to the court house and get more copies, then our stinking doctor redid his form but this time didn't do it on letter head so I had to find a way to get his name and address typed on the top of the page, then we had a few last forms to get notarized and then off the Madison to get every thing apostilled! Only when we got to Madison (FINALLY) the lady told us "OK it should be back to you in about five days"... "WHAT" said a very hungry and tired third shifter who hadn't slept because his crazy wife had this great idea to drive out to Madison to get everything DONE once and for all! Fred was not very polite and asked if we could pay extra to get the papers expedited, she very kindly said "well we could but it will take at least 24hrs for that to happen"! The first thing our of Fred's mouth was "I wasted my whole day for this I could have been sleeping" but when we reached the bottom of the building and stepped off the elevator (that is to old for motion detectors and Fred got closed in the doors and pulled them apart like the incredible Hulk... it was so funny) his spirit was calm and he looked at me and said that he had a lot of fun and he enjoyed the senary! Despite the craziness and another day gone and still not submitted, we had a good day and I got home in time to bake Cole some cupcakes that we shared them with Bible Study!
I Love You Cole and I promise I am working as hard as I can to come and get you!
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