New Update... Grrrrrr!!!

OK the other night we got an email that said 11 of our documents expired and we have until November 13th to get them in! I don't think I have to tell you how scared I was and I will admit that I completely broke down! Thank God I have Fred he did something very uncharacteristic of himself... he sat down next to me, he kept his cool and he just put his arm around me. In that moment I just thought to myself wow look at the man he has become since our marriage began, God has done such a work in us and our marriage! So even though we were both mad and hurt and upset we started working on what we could that night we emailed all the people that needed to help us redo our forms and got responses the next day. I know God doesn't always show you why you need to go through something but I prayed and thought if he could show me why we have to wait more and go through this at least it will help me to stay focused. I'm sure this isn't the only reason but a huge "brick" fell on me yesterday. I have a confession, before we found out that these forms needed to be redone I was very afraid of having to go to Ukraine. I was scared of the air plane, of the language barrier and culture barrier. I was afraid of the food, of the people and of the unknown! After getting this news and thinking the worst (that I'd never get my children)I have to say the fear of never getting to hold my beautiful babies was far worse than the fear of what I have to do to get them! All my fears about Ukraine seem silly now and Fred and are closer than ever. This has also helped Fred and I to focus on God and not on ourselves! So even thou this stinks I have all the faith that God's time will be perfect I hop I can just keep my head while I have to wait!
We already have all of our redoes started and half of them are done and ready to be sent to Madison!!! PLEASE KEEP PRAYING!!!

Here's Where We Stand...

After a stressful and emotional week... that I wont even get into but I'm sure many of you can understand where I'm coming from! I emailed our coordinators to see if I could get an update on our status and I got an answer... not the answer I was hoping for but an answer none the less. Our dossier hasn't been submitted yet they are hopeful that it will be submitted by the end of this week, which is great news but not if you thought you were already submitted... grrrrr! I am however SOOOO thankful for the people around me that have been able to encourage me and just be there for me to cry to!!!! Fred and I are learning the true meaning of... "BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD!" knowing God is in control is probably the only thing that is getting me through. I think the weirdest feeling I have ever felt is knowing that I can't doing anything but wait but not being able to wait I can't even explain it. There's absolutely nothing I can do to make this go faster but I can't wait... I can't wait... I know I have to but I cant! Can you explain that because it doesn't make sense to me, how do I make myself feel better! I knew this was going to be hard but I didn't know it was going to HURT so BAD!!!!! I need to consume myself in God's word and keep myself busy I think that will do it!

I'm Running Out...

I'm running out of things to do to prepare, I have cleaned the house top to bottom, I have cleaned all the toys, I have changed and rearranged their rooms right now I'm working on doing all their laundry and steam cleaning the furniture. Next the basement I guess, then maybe the garage? What's funny is I'm sure that once we have a date I'm going to think "Oh no I need more time"! I know this will happen but it is getting excruciating to wait, I didn't think that doing their laundry would affect me so much but I had to bit my lip a few times so that I didn't cry.
On a funny note Fred and I were getting ready for a special date night on Saturday and I went into the kids bedroom to rock in the rocking chair and pray while Fred was in the shower... totally fell asleep! I'm glad Fred woke me up we had a lot of fun we went out to dinner and then to Comedy Sportz it was Great!

WOW SOOOOOO Busy!!!

I feel awful that I haven't posted in so long let me tell yu what has been going on: Fred and I finished all our loan paperwork and have submitted it so please be praying that we recieve the rest of our finances to bring our babies home! We are appling through a Christian organization and hope to get approved soon. We have also been working on complieling paperwork that will be need for the American embassy once we travel... more work thanI thought it was going to be. But now for the most exciting news... if you didn't know Rorie and Cole will be Fred and my first children so as far as having things that a child needs we were very unpreparied but last weekend my Mom and Best friend had a baby shower for me and Fred. It was very overwhelming to me becasue here bringing us gifts were all the people that had worked so hard to help raise money for our adoption. I wondered to myself is there no limit to what these people will give, is there no limit to what God can provied? NO... there is no limit to Gods love, blessing, and mercies that he shows everyday to us and for that Fred and I are truly humbled and greatful to our family and friends! Now according to tradition a baby shower is an event that is shared between women, but our shower was unique. Because we were adoption we were able to incorperate some fun things from our children's culture; My cousins and I made Ukrainian Snow Cap Cookies and a Ukrainian Berry Ice Tea. Fred made a Ukrianian Kielbasa and Cabbage soup. Now my husband LOVES to eat so when he was told that the shower was for women and that meant the food to he wasn't very happy so along with his best friends Sean, they devised a plan to make themselves acceptable to join in our festivities... I'm just going to show you...

My husband Fred is the pretty blond on the left and Sean is the handsome brunette on the right or is he a red head? I havent laught so hard in so long!!! Needless to say we allowed them to stay!
The other exciting news is that Fred and I have completed the kids bedroom and well as thier play room, the rooms are so fun I have a hard time not being in them all the time! I sit in thier bedroom almost every day and just pray, I can't wait util they are asleep in thier beds and I am praying over them!

This is thier bedroom that thier Dad took his "sweet time" to paint!




This HUGE project started out as just a simple blue wall... then Fred and I added whit clouds... Then we had green paint left over from thier bedroom so naturally we need grass... Then what was blue skys, whit clouds and green grass without a tree or a sun or glow in the dark stars? I admit we may have gotten carried away but it was so much FUN and Fred and I did the whole project together! I'm so tankful for how close we have gotten over the last six months, I didn't think we could get closer but it is amazing the love and respect that we have for one another that I dont think we had before! In the last two weeks I have celebrated my sixth wedding anniversay with my BEST FRIEND and husband, I had a wonderful baby shower with my friends and family and today I celabrated my 27th birthday... and the only thing that I can think of is how great it will be when this time next year I have two little ones throwing thier arms around me to give me the b=very best birthday gift of all... thier hugs and kisses!