Why do I adopt????

Rorie and Cole have both changed so much I just can't even remember the kids they were when they first came home! Rorie is so strong and such a big helper. She has learned so many words it's crazy to me. She is now putting words together and she REALLY knows what she wants, today she asked to go to "Church"... LOL! The other morning when we were eating breakfast and I was feeding Cole yogurt she said "Yummmm Cole is that good?" I couldn't believe it, she is so smart I just can't say enough about her!

Cole... Cole... Cole... He is the most AMAZING blessing God has ever given me... so far!!!! This little boy is doing things I will be honest and a little ashamed to admit, I just didn't think he would do and I was ok with it. The other day he was in his chair and after getting a drink from his sippy cup he picked it up all by himself and just held it. He wasn't sure what to do with it next but just picking it up and not throwing it or pushing off the table that is HUGE for him!!! In therapy the other day he took 23 steps holding onto the therapists hands and they are starting to have him walk on a treadmill. In speech he is starting to mimic sounds "p-p-p" "b-b-b" and "wa-wa-wa", and they didn't even want to give him speech at all! I can't wait to see how he will grown in another 6 months!!!! He has an appointment with the ortho, cardio, urology and he will have a swallow study done very soon. He is getting so BIG!

I am telling you all this because if it weren't for Fred and my willingness to follow God's plan for our life Cole and Rorie would be very different kids. I believe whole heartedly that Cole may have given up and may very well not be here on earth. These kids that Fred and I are fighting to get home NEED us, They NEED to have a Mommy that will fight to get them the medical attention they deserve and the care they NEED to be successful. They NEED a Daddy that will come home from working all day and just love on them. They Need a YOUNGER Big sister that will show them the ropes and help take care of them and they NEED a little brother to play with. They Need a strong church family that will help take care of them and help nurture their growing faith. And they need a family that will love and accept them for who they are and love them NO MATTER WHAT. If Fred and I didn't follow God's call on our life these little ones would NEVER know any of these things. People make excuses why they think they could never adopt but if they stepped back and let God work He would "Bless Your Socks Off!!!!" Please help us to bring these little ones home. They started out life all alone not wanted and sent to a baby house where they received the worst care possible, one of our little guys barely made it. Once transferred to the institution, completely by God's grace, someone looked at this little boy that everyone else in his short life saw "nothing" and they decided to give him a chance. He was evaluated and put in the rehab groupa where he received better food and better care. A year later this 5 year old boy is doing better but is still living with very little stimulation, he doesn't even know how to play with toys. What little kid do you know that doesn't know how to play with toys? I have been told he wears a size 6mths clothing... HELP me bring this boy home!!!!

His brother who started off life the same way has been with him since the beginning. But he was evaluated and placed in the laying room... that is exactly how it sounds the kids spend their days and nights laying in a bed. Very little if any stimulation and attention given. I am happy to report that he just received an evaluation and has been moved to the "rehab groupa" and is now reunited with his brother.

Here is what you do not know there was a little girl that has been with the boys since the beginning as well. When I learned of her immediately I felt God say... "Yup, her too". But I ignored it. I thought no this is just me being crazy and I put it out of my head. As we went along with the adoption the pull on my heart got harder and harder to ignore and I fought God tooth and nail. I even verbally said out loud, "NO Lord I WILL NOT LOVE HER", "I CAN"T"! After that I got really sick and I realized the reasons that I told my self I couldn't do it were selfish and that if God wanted this for my life then I will have to trust that HE will make everything work out! I was so worried about what "people" would think... crazy right? But I did and then my Mom said to me "who am I to tell you what God has or doesn't have for your life?" Imagine the blessing we miss out on because we do not follow what God has for our life, we want to control our lives but I don't know about you every time I'm in control I seem to make things worse. Stepping out of the way and letting God do it has been working out SOOOO much better! So let me tell you a little something about "Anya". She will be 6years old in December, when she was transferred she met the same fate as "Roly" and was sent to the laying room. A year ago this little girl still had a light in her eyes and was cuddly and loving. After 365 days of laying... just laying she has regressed and it breaks my heart. I don't think I have ever felt this kind of pain in my whole life. She receives NO stimulation and due to the lack there of she pokes herself in her eyes. This leaves me with the question WHY?????? Because she doesn't fit into a society's view of "Normal"! Does this make sense to anyone? Here comes the blessing part... This little girl was evaluated and God saw it fit to put on the person that was doing the evaluation to move her and she is now in the same room with her brothers and now they are just waiting for Mommy and Daddy to come and get them!!!!! I serve such a merciful God, looking back on this short journey that isn't even over yet I can't believe that with me just stepping out of the way how God has directed our path and has changed our lives. And that he loves me so much that he is giving us this GREAT opportunity!!!!